is in your eyes,
looking up at me from down there where you reside.
Have you just learned this is how to achieve what you want?
Or do you really feel the rush?
The need?
It scares me.
I don't mean to offend, but you look pitiful.
Just makes me sad. Makes me want to give you the world although I can't afford it. For you I'll find a way.
This urgency scares me.
My eyes wet the pages as I put down these simple words.
And I…
just…
I can't…
Don't want to...
Do you feel it the same way I do? Seen ho
w white your face has gotten over the years?
I hope not.
Do you feel it at our door like I do? I hope not. It creeps behind me sending shivers in the confining heat up my spine, but you wiggle with excitement anyway.
This is what I imagine having atom split from atom feels like.
This feels like a chisel between my ribs
Rap tap tap with every look. This pain is unbearable but others have done it; this isn't my first time, it’s just part of the contract innit? I can't breathe though. Just the thought of it feels like an apocalypse now.
How can this continue?
I hope this meager crumb means as much to you as it does me.
- Samual Curtis
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